Thursday, December 22, 2011

Bring on the Light

The shortest day without light has passed.  Winter Solstice brings us the first day of winter and the return of the light.   The light will begin to shine brighter and brighter day by day.  

I need the light.

My light seemed to leave when my children moved away from home.  I'm feeling the effects of empty nest syndrome even though my youngest Daughter is still at home {and very active}. Both of my Son's moved away and while my youngest Son promises me that he is returning back to live in our town, I'm felling the void.   
My oldest Daughter lives out of province and does not come home to visit but once a year. Now she is expecting her first baby and the likelyhood of her flying across the country with a baby in tow is minimal. My first Grand child, a Grandson, will be born across the country.  

My light went out. It brightened and flickered momentarily when I found out I was to be a Grandmother, but it has not remained bright. I dwell on the what couldn't be and out of my reach, instead of what is in front of me.   I am missing my three children at the Christmas table this year and I feel empty.

Everyone looks to me to explore into their world, and I do with pleasure. I do get a bit jealous that I don't have the same ability to look at my life. It's true, psychics cannot read their own path.  I want to look down the road and see the light in my life. I am weary from the rugs being pulled out from under my feet without me seeing. It feels at times that I am being blindsided. It's a frustrating feeling for someone who see's so much in others.

Well the last rug has been pulled. 

I am on the bare floor without a rug in sight and there is nothing more to take.  
I am looking for the light.  
I am looking for the miracles.  

I am very proud of my children, I am glad that I taught them to be independent. They feel that they can do anything, go anywhere; and that they reach and aim for all of their goals with success.   I am glad that I am close with all of my children that we communicate well and on a regular basis. I love to hear about their work days, pregnancy days, and their jokes at my expense.
................. oh, but I miss the comedy show at my house. 

I have struggled this year more than I have in the past. But I've come to the conclusion that the light is coming with the new year and why should December come easier for me.  
My guides have a great sense of humour saying 'Oh, she is down and out. Let's show her what it really means to be down and out'.  
Ok. I get it. And in my heart I am grateful for all the goodness I have.

Look for the light and the miracles.  
Count your blessings. I have four healthy children and a beautiful Grandchild on the way.  

I see the light and in the light is my smile, my happiness, and my alarm clock to get my sorry butt out of bed and out of the house.  
It's time to make an appointment with the universe and set up my calendar for next year.
I plan to set the dates for all the miracles I need in my world.  
It's time to walk the walk, it's time to talk the talk. 

I will surround myself with Gods beautiful light. Time to bring the Angels, bring the fairies, bring the guides back into my world.  
I am putting my post-it notes up everywhere to remind me to say;

'I AM GRATEFUL for.......

I AM .......... STRONG, .......'

No time for tears, no time for sadness. 
It's time to reach deep within myself and give myself the gift of happiness.

It is two more sleeps 'til Christmas.  
I am ready to put out the decorations and put some lights on the tree.
I'm ready to have a Merry Christmas.  
Tomorrow I will go out and start my Christmas Shopping. I will look forward to a New Year and I know that despite the nest being more empty than I was ready for........ the New Year will bring new adventures. 

 I am filling the rooms up with love for my Children and new Grandbaby when they come home to visit.  

Today........ I found the light.

Sunday, October 16, 2011

All that is Beautiful

Recently I just found out that I am going to be a Grandma.   Like becoming a parent you begin to look at life differently.   It is a new era.  A new beginning.
One that I will cherish, embrace, and love passionately.   We have a new person joining our family.

The first question I am asked is.... " Do you know what the baby is yet? "  Do I ..... yes!  Does my daughter know .......No.   She will wait for the ultra sound and confirm what I already see.

I have already been shopping, buying the appropriate 'colour'.  I am not allowed to tell my Daughter what the baby's sex is, she wants to wait for the ultra sound. And I am good with that. I want her to feel the joy of seeing her baby on the monitor, the joy of hearing the heartbeat for the very first time. I want to hear my Daughters joy when she calls to tell me about her experience. But, I'M GOING TO BE A GRANDMA..... and I am shopping and preparing already. 

A very good friend of mine once said having a grandchild is wonderful.   When the grandchild is born of your Daughter, it's down right nerve racking.   At the time I remember thinking what an odd thing to say, does this mean when it's your sons baby don't worry? But now I have a glimpse of what she meant.
My daughter has told me already that I don't need to check up on her every day or at least not twice a day.  Reluctantly I will back off to maybe one phone call every other day..... OK - I WILL TRY not to call each and every day. But hey, I'm going to be a Grandma!

Time has slowed down all of a sudden and it feels it will take forever for May to get here so we can greet the newest addition to our family. I can't wait to cradle, to kiss and snuggle the next generation..... My first grandchild.   I can't wait to see my baby with her baby.  I can remember so clearly the first day holding my baby, and now 27 years later I will watch her with her first child.  I am excited - OVER THE MOON - it is a reflection of all that it beautiful.

The white rabbit brought me the ultimate gift.....   A precious Grand-baby.
I am not allowed to tell if it's pink or blue .....but my friends know. It brings to mind the old verse: 'Pink or Blue, we'll love you'. And we will, this baby will be surrounded by love.

I do know this; my Husband and I, and our children, will all welcome with open hearts our newest family member.

Hey! I'm going to be a Grandma!!

Tuesday, October 11, 2011


The Harvest Moon is the full Moon that occurs closest to the autumn equinox (about Sept. 23), in two years out of three, the Harvest Moon comes in September, but in some years it occurs in October. The full moon tonight is also known appropriately as the Shedding Moon or the Falling Leaf Moon.

The Harvest Moon seems to be bigger or brighter or more colorful than other full moons. This is the moon time when the veil between our world and the spirit world are at its thinnest. Use this time for spiritual growth, open up your third eye and get in touch with your intuitive center.   If there's a deceased relative that you wish to contact, this is a great month to do it.  This is the time to seek inner peace and truth.  Use tonight's full moon to cleanse and charge your crystals and your tarot cards. 

Enjoy the Harvest Moon

Monday, October 10, 2011


Happy Thanksgiving

Take this moment to reflect all that you have to be thankful for

Enjoy your day with family and friends

Take in the Beauty of the Fall

Be thankful for all the good in your life

Friday, September 2, 2011

Thank you "My Friends"

Thank you to my amazing friends and readers.   I received many Happy White Rabbit Day messages and general messages to say they were excited to see a new entry on my blog.  

During the summer months this year I found time slipped away from me.  I also felt a little lost.   Time flew by and it is time to get back on track, back in the saddle and follow my heart again.  

Thank you for waiting for me and Thank you for your encouragement.

Thursday, September 1, 2011


Its September 1st and its WHITE RABBIT DAY -   Summer is over and the rabbit is about to get busy, busy busy.   

My nephew has been staying with me for a few weeks and we are gearing up for the morning.   It will be a huge competition between his cousin Jarrod who is 22 and Deven who is 12.  GAME ON they say.   

I had it wrong and started to call yesterday to my friends who laughed and said I was a day early.   Oh ....yeah there is 31 days in August not 30.    It was a good day to start the day with a good laugh at yourself.  

A very good friend described my blog like the Movie Ground Hog Day.....ok I said I get it I will get back on track.   The summer is my busy time with the work on the lake and when  I get back in I was too tired.   Now no more excuses.   It is time to get busy and write again.   I am back on track and what a better day to start is with  WHITE RABBIT DAY. 

So HAPPY WHITE RABBIT DAY to you and have a great day.  

Wednesday, July 20, 2011

Deja Vu

Have you ever gone somewhere that you haven't been and feel like you have either come home or you recognize the area even though you have never been there??

Have you had a conversation with someone and you know exactly what they are going to say next?? 

There are many times in our life that we experience Deja Vu.   I like to think of them as check in points that I am on the right path or right experience.   I often have Deja Vu.   It usually gives me great comfort to know that somehow these experiences remind me that I am on track.  

When I was 16 I was in a terrible car accident and although my injuries were minor (a broken arm and many cuts) not only had I predicted the accident and every ones injuries, days after I had an enormous presence of Deja Vu.   I had been awarded a Glider Pilots Scholarship.   I went down broken arm and all hoping to be able to continue my scholarship.  Unfortunately, I was taken to the blue room and I knew what was going to be said.  I had Deja Vu the whole day.  It was like I had a script before hand.   I could finish off sentences for everyone.  The Deja Vu was comforting to me....... the visions of the car accident and description that I had given everyone the day before not so much.

I often experience Deja Vu.   They come during good times and bad times.   Each time I know that the experience is there for me to know and the Deja Vu is just a check point letting me know that I will be OK and there is another lesson to be learned.   I don't always enjoy my lessons but I accept them and move along the course plotted out for me. 

Deja Vu I call it my "Been there Done that" feeling and know whatever comes my way it will be fine.

Monday, July 18, 2011

Grateful Mondays

Today I am GRATEFUL for the feet I have to walk on ...... to take me to places I wish to go.   

I am grateful for my hands that can feel and touch things, that can write and type.

I am grateful for my eyes that they can see beauty in all that surrounds me.

I am grateful for my ears that bring wonderful sounds from nature.

Today I am grateful for just being me.

Sunday, July 17, 2011

Relax :: Its Sunday

Another Sunday it took me along time to

roll out of bed and then I had such a bad case of

tunnel vision today and I have not been able to get myself organized so I thought I would just

blend in with the scenery today.  I will of course

chat with my children and find out what is new.   Then I will maybe I will

 find out what is new on the lake.  

Its a Great Day today and don't forget to RELAX ITS SUNDAY

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